We've had a
doozy of a week. The kids are just growing in leaps and bounds, not just physically, but mentally too.
For some reason, and now that I think about it, I'm not sure why I haven't asked why...
BG has decided that she doesn't want kids when she grows up. A few months ago, she did want kids, but now, she doesn't.
She has said something to that fact in the recent past. I just say okay
and we move on. But yesterday, she decided to elaborate on the topic.
She was telling me she doesn't want kids when she grows up... I was
only half listening as I was doing something inane like driving or
something... until she said, so how do I prevent a baby from growing
inside my tummy when I grow up?
I just about busted a gut! I wish I could have that conversation again
when she's a teen. I was actually impressed with myself though, I said,
"We can definitely talk about that when you get a little bit older."
I just think it's so interesting that she thinks a baby will just
naturally grow inside of her belly... what an interesting observation.
Makes me wonder with whom she's been talking.
And then Buddy said to me the other day,
"I cleaned up my tiny little mess, do you appreciate it
Momma?"
When he says that word it just melts my heart; a four syllable word coming out of my three-year-old's mouth in context.
But today, today he topped it all off. He was handing me his cup so I
could put more juice in it. He handed it to me and let it go, I took it
from his hand but it didn't take. So, the cup fell to the floor. The
small amount of juice that was still at the bottom went flying all over
the floor. Buddy took one look at the spill and with as much conviction
as a three-year-old can muster he put his hands on his hips and said "
dammit!"
I had to turn away as I couldn't contain the smile that was
spreading across my face. I got down on his level, looked him right in
the eye and said,
"Buddy, that word is not for you, okay?"
And he said,
"No, it's not, it's only for you."
To which I said yes, but again I had to turn away since I couldn't wipe the huge smile off my face.
I have told you this before, I am the potty mouth around here. Not my
husband. So, when Hubs hears my son swear, he will know, as sure as the
sun rises every day, that my son got those words from me. And there is
not one darn thing I can do about it.
Another thing I can't do anything about is BG starting school in the
fall. I actually had a panic attack the other day about the upcoming
school year.
BG is more than excited to be starting Kindergarten and Buddy is waiting to start going to pre-school in the fall.
I am so very not excited, however.
BG
is such a sweet girl. I do not want her to become jaded at school.
Kids can be so very mean and my girl is so engrossed in herself
sometimes, she doesn't notice when kids are mean to her. I don't want
her to be hurt by anyone. I don't want anyone to look at her sideways
or to say something that will hurt her feelings. I worry about her
getting on that school bus and having no one to sit with. I worry about
her being at school (away from my watchful eye) all day long at school.
But what can I do? My baby girl is growing up and she must go to
school. She must learn to fend for herself; to make friends and enemies
alike, all on her own. I can't shelter her forever. I have seen all
to well what happens to kids who are
sheltered too much. Whose parents don't ever let them go. I don't want that for her.
But dammit, I don't have to like it , do I? Not one little bit!