I wasn't sure I was going to make it, but I got our Holiday cards out today; technically right before Christmas!  Everyone seems to be on the mend from our crazy illness, our Christmas tree is up and gorgeous and it seems I can almost smell again.  After almost a week of not being able to smell a thing, my first smell was poop (but, o well, at least it was something!).  All our shopping is done, the kids are a bit giddy and I am too.

I didn't think I would be this Christmas since my mom passed away in September.  We were very close and she left a very big hole in her place.  I still break down and cry sometimes for no reason.

I was driving around yesterday getting some last minute errands done and I started thinking that I would be picking her up to help her run her errands if she were around (she didn't drive).  That thought and realizing that I will never ever be doing that again set me off.  Next thing you know I've got Niagara Falls in the car and I was sobbing.  I had to take a deep breath or I would soon look like I had undergone a Botox treatment in the face.

But, alas, I digress.  I like this feeling giddy for Christmas.  It's easy to become jaded when you're out fighting for parking spaces, big ticket items on the shelves, and for attention at the post office.  But this time, it seems my daughter's excitement has rubbed off on me.  I can't wait for the presents to go under the tree (even though I still have to wrap them).  I'm actually excited about going to church on Christmas Eve with both kids in tow right before their bedtime, ha!

I'm anxious to see what "Santa" brought for me.  My husband seems to have been busy this year, shopping.  I can't wait to see the kid's faces when they open up their gifts.  We even got presents for the dog to open!

So, if you haven't really been feeling up to the Holidays yet, here is a tap from my giddy stick!  May the giddiness of Christmas (or Holiday of your choice) reach your heart and make it one full of happy memories!